Enter The Poet - Always Being The One At Fault

I wonder what I will feel today, melancholy or anticipation
Will I be working alone, or will there be some participation

I wonder if I will feel relief, or yell in utter frustration
Will I be bound again today, or know emancipation

Is this another day for destruction, or one of new creation
Will I be removed from the club, or finally know initiation

But I am always the last one to realize any obvious revelation
Therefore I accept the nuances in life with simple appreciation